Above all things I have

If it were not for you,

all that clogs my system would have been immovable.

Now,

I can see the peeping edges of every thing that I have taken inside me.

Those strands and mushes overpower the acid of my existence.

But your existence overpowers this mixture of things that turns into every meaningful, divine step--

to reach you,

and to be with you.

You are above me.

These things mean less than what you are to me.

When I'm with you

"When I'm with you, I act different. In a good way. I smile more and laugh more.

I don't have to pretend everything is okay when it's not. With you, I can drop the fake smile and put on a real one. I don't feel hurt and alone when I'm with you. Instead, I feel safe and loved. You're easy to talk to, and you listen to me.

I don't have to worry about holding back with you. I don't feel self-conscious.

I don't ever feel insecure or sad. You show me that you really do care, and you're not just pretending. I really appreciate your company, because with you I'm different.

With you, I'm happy." --RE

12:00 a.m.

Every morning when I wake up, I always remember your smile, and that big hug. Never did I forget to think how are you doing for the day, nor did I eat a spoon of hearty breakfast without thinking how well you must have eaten, too. But behind those simple things I just simply treasure every moment I think of you, because I could not imagine how I could ever live without thinking about you every single day, until our hair turns gray, mine only with several strands. And the ugly things about us will only become our laughing stock. From now on, I just want to be happy, with you. --RE

I cannot hide.

Your eyes

say it all.

You may not notice,

but they speak more than

what your lips tell me.

They launch unspoken

words that only my heart understands.

If only I could take those eyes home.

If only I could stand by you.

If only.

If only things were different.

I am last.

I'm going home without those eyes,

but I know they are watching me over,

until I see those eyes again,

even my heart shall remain unrequited.

Until your eyes and my heart meet

at the end of our roads.

There is no turning back now; I will see your eyes there.

And the smile that I long for the most.

Getting there

is not easy.

I have to wear all these
realities, and disrobe them
while traversing
the road of inconsistency,
uncertainty.

But one thing is certain—
I'm getting near
you.

Heart of Coal

This heart knows no pain—it knows no sorrow.

For there is a blade pierced through this heart
that only you can withdraw.

We are swallowing epiphany.

"You're still here."

The Storm Before the Calm

You're still here but I am still the sea. And as peaceful as I seem,

please don't ever turn your back on me.

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From

I Wrote This For You